@iamdreamermichelle: July 2017

NANAY - a word that can make me cry.

The healthy Nanay way back then!

As a grand daughter, I had the best memories of my childhood years because of you, Nanay. And I know, my cousins too! You were such a generous, a loving, kind-hearted and God-fearing - a great Nanay to us all!

Nanay and I way back Grade 3...when I got my first ribbon at school! :)

Nanay and the apos! :)

The almost complete family picture for Tatay Sano and Nanay Pistang's family!

Our treasured first complete family photo last 2006!

For who I am, all I have and where I am right now, I owe it all to you Nay! You were the proudest every time you say that I am your Nurse! For more than you know, I am so blessed and the proudest that you are my Nanay!

I always missed those days how you proudly say that I am your Nurse! :)

Thank you for everything Nay! Thank you for all your love, for inspiring me & believing in me, Nanay! Thank you for all your prayers and guidance. Thank you for all your pasalubongs from Carbon when we were young. Thank you for being the best Nanay to me and to all!

All About Nanay Pistang! :)

With her daily activities before.

As a wife, a mother, a grandmother and a great grandmother.

Tatay and Nanay's Silver Wedding..oh dba laysho?! :)

Seeing and taking care of you since you were bedridden for 2 years and 2 months (since May 2014), really breaks my heart. From how chubby - to skinny Nanay you were. But out of my (and our) selfishness, just to have you, I prayed to God that you still could have lived longer. I presumed God has a hard time on how and when to end your life - because not just He knew we never prayed for it despite of your situation, but because of how you kind you were!

Tatay Sano visited Nanay a few days after Nanay could no longer stand/ walk.

Lolo Titing and Nanay never see each other personally for almost 20 years.
Lolo visited last April 2016.

Nanay's one of the yayas! hehe

But yes - last 03 July 2017, Monday, at around 6:30 am, the day I never prayed for has really come. It was the most painful day for me yet the literal painless day for you, Nay! So I really didn't know how to react that day. I seemed like your useless Nurse that time. I didn't know what to do until your last few breaths. But still I thanked God for that day I was just at home, coz if not, mangluod jud ko nmo.

From now on, no more pain from your bed sores, wounds, fever, cough, edemas and all. But your loss and the fact that I could no longer see, touch, hug and kiss you physically and saying how much I love you really breaks my heart. And I just don't know until when I will cry for you, Nay. Please forgive me for this! I really missed seeing you in your bed or wheelchair. I missed you at home. I missed everything about you Nay!

I know you are in God's hands now Nay and I gain my instant angel fairy God mother! Please watch over us Nay! Despite how busy we will be as we continue our lives here on earth, you will always have a special spot in our hearts and minds. We will never forget you! Thank you for all of the great memories, Nay! Pa HUUUUUG and KISSSSSS!

When we celebrate Nanay's 80th birthday
(which supposed to be 81). lolz!
20 August 2012, Monday.